She never came.
They left us grief-trees
wailing at the wall.
And that was all.
“Death by poisoning,” by Dorothy
Molloy
She left us waiting
for the rabbit
in the hat but all
we got was how
long do you stare
at a black top hat
waiting for a white rabbit
to hop out? She was like
a mother for seven years.
She never came
back to our tearing calls.
How could she? The blood
that ran through us didn’t
match, so we couldn’t
signal her homing.
They say she flew
across the pond
because our Dad wasn’t
nice. The neighbours,
they left us grief trees
in their stances and stark
glances. We saw pity
seed their eyes. Tempting
to rip out
or better yet, tap
it like sap. Poor little
orphans. We aren’t
orphans. We have a father.
Our real mother just doesn’t
live with us, wailing at the wall
is one of the many things
she does in foreign countries.
We’ve got postcards and pictures
so we know where she is.
She’s not one for hats
or rabbits (things we can no longer
look at). Magic isn’t a trick,
it’s the return
of what you want, we know that now
and that was all.
Catherine Graham teaches creative writing at the University of Toronto. This poem appears in Put Flowers around Us and Pretend We’re Dead: New and Selected Poems, her latest collection, published by Wolsak and Wynn.